I sit next to this extremely cute sophomore in honors geometry, but I have never had a conversation with him. Every time I see him, I get all bubbly and happy inside. At the same time, he has the ability to make me feel nervous as fuck. I don’t know what it is about him. His shaggy hair, his beautiful, bright blue eyes, his intelligence, everything.. He never takes notes in class, he never does his homework, yet he still manages to get 90%+ on his tests and quizzes. I don’t get it, but it sure is attractive. A guy with brains is a guy I need.

There were so many opportunities in which I had the chance to talk to him, but didn’t. This has to be a sign because I keep getting chance after chance, but end up with regret after regret. The first time was when I was at a party, and so was he. Back then, I didn’t pay much attention to him though. It was like oh he’s just some kid in my geometry class. The second time was during finals. My mom dropped off in the back of the school by the cafeteria, the athletic entrance. As I got out of the car and started walking towards the entrance doors, there he was. He tried opening the door, but it was locked. I let out a little laugh and said, “Locked?” He gave me a comforting smile and replied, “Yeah, I think we have to go through the visitors entrance.” We walked all the way from the athletic entrance to the visitors entrance and together to the cafeteria. It’s a decent amount of distance. Enough to get to know each other a little, but nope. Me being a dumbass couldn’t think of anything to talk about. Besides, I didn’t want to say anything to embarrass myself anyways. Instead, I just kept quiet and played it safe. That leads it down to now, I have been sitting next to him in class for about two and a half weeks.. Silence still haunts me. He sneezed in class the other day, no one said anything. Since I sit next to him, I should have said bless you, but I didn’t. Ugh idk. Another reason I don’t talk to him is because well I can’t. Every day in geometry, we go over a new chapter. Either my teacher is talking and we are taking notes, or we are taking some sort of quiz/test. Also, his best friend sits right in front of him and is ALWAYS talking to him. There’s not one minute during class were his best friend isn’t turned around talking to him. It’s so aggravating.

It’s like whenever I see him, my heart races and I get all choked up inside. My mind gets blank, and I can’t think of the words to say. Whenever I see him, I can’t help but to smile because he’s in my presence. It sounds so stalkerish of me since I have never had a real conversation with him. All I do is admire him.. Omg what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel like Helga from “Hey Arnold,” except she actually talked to him. Eeesh… I told my friend Sarah my dilemma and she was like, “Compliment him on his shoes!!” I would’ve, except he wears the same shoes everyday so…

Well that’s my story.. Sigh, I have no game when it comes to guys. =_= lol hgjskjd 

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February 11, 2012 △ 23 notes
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